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My Forbidden Love

by Gemulepa (Australia)

My Forbidden Love: I think I’m in love with you and it’s been driving me crazy. I never wanted to feel this way about you but I just do and you know what..? I don’t regret it one bit. I really don’t, if anything I love that I fell for you and no one else.

You are such a great guy who deserves so much more than I could ever offer you which is why I’ve decided to keep these feelings hidden within myself.

I know that it is going hurt and kill me so much but I couldn’t bare living with myself if I only brought misery and pain into your life. So cheers to all the memories and feelings you’ve given me to cherish for the rest of my lonely and unpredictable days.

Even if I can’t have you, hold you or love you, just watching you become a better person each day and living your life to the fullest is enough for me.

I really wish you all the best in the future with whomever you may share that future with. I pray she’ll be as caring and loving as you have shown me a person can be. May she complete you and bring all the joy and happiness into your life that you truly deserve.

I had never been certain about anything in my life until I met you and you showed me the meaning, expression, and feeling of true love. It’s what other’s had been striving endlessly to put into stories, music and art but never succeeding was shown to me through your warmth, smile, words, actions and embrace.

So Thank You.

I can’t promise to remember every second and moment I’ve spent with you but I most certainly won’t ever forget how you made me feel.

I Love You… but that shall remain silent within this broken heart of mine till death do I and this unrequited love part.

March 23, 2023
My Love for You Cathy

by Kiran Paul

Dear Cathy,

Ever since I’ve met you and came to know you in this past few days, I’ve come to a realisation that you’re the one for me.

You’ve got no idea how happy I am whenever I’m texting or calling you. You really make me feel like the happiest guy in this whole wide world. You’re the most beautiful and smartest girl that I’ve ever come across in my life.

I admire your personality so much, the way you think and act is so adorable.

I remember the first day that I talked to you on the phone, your intelligence and confidence really made me fall in love with you. It was from that moment that I realised I want to spend the rest of my life with you.

There are times when I just keep quiet because I want to hear your sweet voice and I always like the way you explain things in such a detailed manner. I just want this happiness to be a forever thing with you. You might think my feelings are too fast and hurried but it only takes a second to realise if a person is perfect for you or not.

That very moment is when I lost my heart to you and it was the best feeling ever.

There is so much that I’ve fallen in love with… the way you’re always so kind and sweet to me, the way you’re so hardworking, the way you always care so much for the people around you, you’re patience with everything, you’re confidence in being successful and the list goes on.

I didn’t just fell for your beauty but also your humble personality. It made me realise how much we are alike and that our minds have the same mentality. You’re everything a guy would want in a girl and I truly want you for the rest of my life.

It’s easy to say but actions speaks louder than words. That’s why I want to keep working hard to show you that I really deserve you.

I want to make sure that whenever you’re with me, the only thing that you’ll feel is happiness. You’re happiness matters to me more than anything else in this world and not a day that goes by will change that.

My love is forever yours. I promise that I’ll treat you like a diamond and make sure you keep shinning as bright as ever.

Even if you are far away from me, you will never leave my heart even for a second. My love for you will blossom until the end because I want you to be mine and the only one for me till the end.

While I might not have the most romantic words at my disposal to express my love to you, I will manage these three words, special words, to show you how much you mean to me on a daily basis. After all words are just words if no action and effort is put into it. That’s why I’ll always give you my 100% effort into making you happy and to ensure that you’re always satisfied.

Like I said, nothing will ever be more important than your happiness to me and you’ll always be my number one priority. Seeing you smile and happy means a great deal for me, I would never want to see you sad. I would literally make sure that happiness is all that you will feel through out this life.

You’re the only one in my mind and heart and I solely promise that you’ll be the only one that I give my heart to.

I can keep on writing how much you mean to me and how much I feel for you but I prefer to make sure my actions speaks for me instead. I really want you for the rest of my life cutie and I’m going to make sure that I’ll do everything in my power to fulfill dream.

I wake up every morning smiling because of you. It is because I’m so eager to text and talk to you. I am really really lucky to have you in my life and I’m truly grateful for it. You’re the most special beautiful woman in my life !!!

March 23, 2023
My Love for You!

by DM from UK

Bekah,

I think your amazing. You are one of the nicest most caring sweet most genuine girls I have ever met in my life.

You have the biggest heart and it must be made of pure gold because you’re an absolute darling. Your kindness and your sense of humor make me want to do my best by you, as you always do by me.

You are the image of pure perfection…Your amazing hair is so stand out, your eyes are so inviting, and so is your amazing smile.

I love your amazing accent and I feel giddy every time you talk to me.

You deserve the world and I’d move heaven and earth to be with you.

You deserve your happiness and if I could provide that and look after you then I would.

I love you Bekah. You are like my angel and I hope and pray that one day you and me will be together.

Just keep doing what your doing Bekah and I’m sure an amazing person, who you deserve, will fall in love with you.

The world would be a better place if we had more people like you in it and you really deserve your happiness.

From your friend who loves you.

Dave xoxoxo

March 23, 2023
My Goodbye Love Letter

by Amy (Toronto)

Dear Sandy,

I never thought our story would be over, but it is. We’ve said goodbye. I thought and hoped we would last forever. I didn’t see this as our future.

I still believe we are soul mates. Losing you feels like losing a part of me. I will always love you, miss you, want you.

I am in so much pain right now that I actually dream of a time in the future when missing you won’t hurt so much. I cherish our good memories and hope those always stay on my mind. Time and distance will help heal this wound.

Our breakup makes me sad because of all that you are. And who we became as a couple.

There are aspects of our time together that I will continue to celebrate. You taught me a lot. Your compassion for animals was one of the things that I loved about you. The first time I saw you holding a baby, the gentle way you spoke, the concern for their comfort—is the moment I knew I loved you.

How those early days went from awesome to nightmare, I don’t know. I only know that we hurt each other in the end.

I won’t blame either one of us for doing things that ultimately destroyed us.

Although I will focus on the positive, it’s the mistakes we made along the way, that are the lessons that sting the most. I struggle with wondering whether the bad memories will fade and allow me to remember the good.

When I decided to move on, I was afraid. It meant I was losing us and therefore losing you. Will I find someone as wonderful as you? I hope so.

I imagine that they’ll come into the relationship with scars just like me. We will probably compare battle stories. Since I am stronger from my time with you, I will hope that the next person is as well.

I do want you to know that you are a great person. We weren’t right, but that doesn’t mean you’re not right for someone else.

Again, I wish this weren’t the case, but I wanted to write you and tell you that above all else—I love you.

Just writing this has helped me come closer to a place where I admire our time together. A patch of rocky road makes us appreciate the smooth miles ahead.

Love always,
Amy

March 23, 2023
Love Letter to Jenny

by Gregory (Santa Monica)

My sweet Jenny,

I used to write these all the time – guess it’s been awhile. Sorry about that. Don’t think that I’m not still in love with you. Just busy I guess. But let me slow my life down a moment and tell you how much you mean to me.

The little things you do for me, for us, each day never ceases to amaze me. Where do you find the time to make my lunch? Thank you for that. I love the little notes you put inside. I always reach in and wonder if today will be the day you didn’t put one in – but nope, they are always there. Just like you. There for me. I am here for you too. Even if I seem caught up in work, trust me, you’re the first thing on my mind when I wake up and the last on my mind when I go to sleep.

March 23, 2023
Love Letter to Mi Amor

by E.O (El Mirage, AZ)

To mi amor,

“I can’t believe my future girlfriend had a Justin Bieber phase.” That to me is still one of the cutest and funniest things you’ve ever said. Yes, I did have a Justin Bieber phase.

It started when I was 8 and it ended when I was 13. Sad, I know. But what I find so cute and so endearing is that you considered me as someone you wanted to be with in the future. To you, it probably was simple flirting, but my heart dropped down to my ass when you said that because I already had the biggest crush on you.

I remember exactly what I was doing that day; I was babysitting my tíos kids and I was feeding the baby. He was having some mango Gerber or something like that. Anyway, when I saw your DM I gasped a bit loudly and scared the baby and had to comfort him afterwards. I also remember telling my best friend what you had said and we were both losing it!

I was trying to act so cool around you, I didn’t want you to think I was a loser, but I was a mess inside. A very cute and nice girl who I had developed a crush on, called me her future girlfriend. How was I supposed to stay calm?

I was so happy.

My crush on you started when you would check up on me whenever I was upset. You were the only person who would ask me if I was okay and you did it more than once. You genuinely cared.

I wanted to talk to you ever since then but you kind of intimidated me. I knew you were nice obviously, but I was scared that you wouldn’t feel the same way. So instead I would try to like your tweets as much as I could without making it obvious that I liked you or without being totally annoying. And then one night I was looking everywhere for as many links I could find for Bangbangcon so I could watch and suddenly you DM’ed me and offered to let me use your account. Out of nowhere. I was so shocked.

I already liked you so I got really happy because the thought of you liking me crossed my mind, but then my brain started messing with me and i was sure i was making things upI, that you were only being nice.

That’s why I was hesitant on accepting it. I didn’t want to over think things or make anything up in my head. And I brought it up to my best friend again, how you offered what you did, and that you had said my spot was safe if i decided to use it, and she told me you liked me.

At first I was confused so I told her to shut up, but then she told me what person would let someone use their personal account to watch something like that without wanting anything in return. I told her that you were only being nice, that you were always so nice to me.

Then she brought up all the times you would check up on me and that you had said you wanted your “fave moot” to enjoy the show. At that point I was ready to shut her down but she said she would beat my ass so I just let it go, but I was thinking about it a lot.

I kept thinking about it while watching the live show and even after. I wanted to keep talking to you then but I was scared that I was being weird.

So I didn’t until one day I said, f*ck it, and decided to send you messages. And then you started sending them too. Even though they were just tweets at first, I was happy. I’m not going to lie though, I was always a bit sad when you wouldn’t reply.

I wanted to send you more messages but I didn’t want to be annoying so I would wait for you to reply.

And the rest, just happened. Now you’re my girlfriend.

You have no idea how happy you’ve made me.

I know that it hasn’t been long but I feel so much for you. You’re nice, kind, sweet, understanding, pretty, gorgeous, beautiful. You’re everything I’ve ever wanted in someone.

You make me feel things that I’ve never felt before. Really, I am just so glad I met you.

I’m so glad we started talking. I am so grateful for you.

I love talking to you all day, you make me laugh and smile. You’re my precious baby.

I can’t wait to meet you and kiss you and hold you.

You are on my mind all day. I am so happy you’re mine on this day. You’re the best girlfriend in the world. Let’s spend countless national girlfriend days together! My feelings are much deeper than just liking you.

You are my everything and more. Mi amor.

yours truly,
Ericka

March 23, 2023
Love Letter to Mohan

by Anna

2019 was eventful for a myriad of reasons – of which one of them was because our paths crossed in South-Eastern Australia.

My heart fluttered when I saw you for the first time in Sunshine Coast. You were never one who was confident about the way you looked but at that moment, I knew you could stand in a room filled with attractive young men and my eyes would only be for you.

While I had romantic feelings for you, never mind the 11-year age gap, you felt we could never be anything more. It took time for me to acknowledge that we can never be together and I moved on.

It is still difficult to come to terms with the fact that you will be turning 35 and soon, find someone whom you can settle down with, but I am happy for you regardless. You deserve nothing but joy and success for your kind and forgiving heart.

I am back in my home country now for my vacation, but this heart misses you. It has been missing you for months. It has been yearning to see you, but distance just never gave me the opportunity to do so.

You will never see this, but you are the best thing that happened to me. I hope the woman who is destined to be your significant other will always protect you and keep you happy because you deserve nothing less.

I thank God for having met you because you took me out of my miseries.

I was dwelling in my past and only moved on when I met you in person and learnt about your own battles. It was an ordeal to see how her departure from your life still troubled you to this day and wished your personal life ended as a fairy tale – just the way you wanted it to be.

Nevertheless, I hope you have gotten back up on your feet and toiling hard at work and serving your patients with a wide smile.

Your sisters are fortunate to have you as their brother, your mother is fortunate to have you as her son, and your ex-girlfriend? She was fortunate to have spent all those years with a man who would have never wished harm upon anyone.

Thank you for being there for me 24/7, for being my confidant, and my constant. Keep smiling, you beautiful thing.

March 23, 2023
Love Letter to My Mimi

by Your Oli

Heya Mimi,

My love. My heart. My Soul. My Chicken Nugget. I know you said not to worry, but obviously, I do, because I care about you more than anything, to be honest.

Ever since that first time we reconnected, all I ever wanted to do was make you happier and I’m so grateful that you’re giving me that chance. You deserve the world and more.

When you originally told me that you like had feelings for me, I was so effing happy because I didn’t want to ruin being able to talk to you. When I realised I was falling for you, I uh actually wasn’t surprised at all, as a human we’re attracted to talent and beauty and brains and personality and you just have it all and more.

I’ll never understand what I did to deserve this chance but I won’t ruin it.

I plan on marrying you baby-girl <3 But I mean, we’re rushing ahead.

I want to start, with the first kiss. The first dance. The first meal made together. The first trip we go on. The first “in real life” date we go to. The first time I hold you in my arms. The first time I pick you up. The first time I touch you.

Like my head, this looks like a mess. It’s not in order, but I’m getting off-topic.

You do this to me. I’m captivated by your brilliance and beauty in all aspects.

From the first time I laid my eyes on you…that smile, that amazing warm smile. I haven’t felt this way about anyone before, never. The connection we have is just…incomparable and the way you make me feel is like well, the luckiest man in the world.

I can never EVER, fully explain how much you mean to me, but I’m gonna try my darn hardest to show you my little butterfly.

I don’t care how long it takes or where it takes place as long as you’re by my side.

Life excites me again, thanks to you—like all the good things in life that we can experience together, all the little things and all the big things. Everything….As long as I’m with YOU.

Yours, forever and always,

Your Oli <3

March 23, 2023
Love Letter to Someone Great

by Catherine Park ( USA )

Dear Jalontey,

You’re driving me insane. You’re slowly killing me and it’s so much worse at night because I’m just lying there, thinking, remembering, and wishing. I still can’t sleep on your side of the bed.

You would tell me that we’re grown and that we’re not kids anymore, so we should treat our relationship like we’re adults.

I think we both were at fault in this however. We both had to grow up, and somehow the realization caused us to grow apart. I think we both had been doing things that we knew weren’t beneficial for us as a couple. But listen… I’m not going to list out everywhere we went wrong and what I could’ve done better because I can’t change it now. Wishing is not the same thing as doing and I can’t do anything at this point anymore.

You promised me you would marry me one day. But it’s OK, because a happy marriage is more important than one where we are constantly getting hurt.

But I won’t forget this because you’re the first person I ever considered an actual future with. Sometimes we make promises that at the time seem so possible, but later become impossible and that is one hundred percent alright. What’s important is that at one time in our lives we meant it.

Ultimately Jalontey, my sweet boy, I want you happy.

Wherever you are and whatever you’re doing I hope it brings you joy.

Know that I found God is real, and we happened for a reason. Everything about our relationship, every detail and breakup happened, I think, so it could help me.

When we broke up for that last time it felt like you kept taking from me.

You had taken my heart and completely shattered it and you took my trust and ruined it. Not just for us but for every boy that would come after. You took my name and lied on it, you took my mind and constantly occupied it and I was barely holding it all together.

But…… it made me stronger and more careful.

Jalontey I still love you after everything and I don’t think it will ever truly go away, no matter how much more time passes.

If we are meant to be, God will ensure that he will bring you home to me, my arms, and my bed.

xoxo
cat

March 23, 2023
Love Is Complicated

by LC (Lexington)

I’m really unsure where to start. I think about how grateful I am to know you quite often. I feel like a lot of random little things had to come together in the right way to make our lives cross paths, and even more had to happen for us to actually make as much of an impact on one another as we have.

I guess it’s like that with everyone, but it’s different…I guess just cause it’s you and you’re different. For me at least.

Basically I think I’m just trying to say I’m really glad I met you, and I’m even more glad that I was able to recognize how important your role in my life was going to be.

I don’t know how to explain the way something in me just knew I was going to love you, like really deeply love you even before I really had any reason to believe it.

Maybe that was the problem. Maybe I just worked too hard to rush the universe, and that’s why our timing has always seemed off.

I’m not supposed to believe in that stuff. Maybe I don’t believe in it, and this is just my brain trying to make up dumb excuses for why I can’t seem to get you out of my head these days. Or why I haven’t been able to get you out of my head since before I even met you.

I guess it doesn’t really matter, because all I know is that something about you has always pulled me in.

The feeling that we would always come back to one another may be naïve, and the actions that this feeling allowed me to take may have been selfish, but that doesn’t erase the fact that I still can’t imagine not having you in my life.

You have sparked so much growth in me already, and I am so grateful for the light you shed on me and my flaws and my strengths and the work I have left to do on myself. The way we interact with one another has not always been kind or gentle, but it has always been impactful.

In addition, some of my happiest memories have been with you, and some of my strongest emotions have been for you (both positive and negative).

I pride myself on being an open person, but I can honestly say that you are the person who I have given the most of myself to. For that reason you are able to see me, truly see me, in a way that can be triggering and frustrating, but also necessary.

I think about our relationship now, and I often feel frustrated, nostalgic, angry, shameful, embarrassed, and broken. There are times when I wonder if my life would’ve been easier had I never met you, and maybe it would’ve been, but it sure as heck wouldn’t have been better.

I can’t write my story without you in it. I loved you, in the truest, scariest way, I really loved you, and I felt you love me back.

I think part of me will always actively refuse to fall out of love with you, regardless of your feelings towards me (or lack thereof). I’m gradually learning to accept my continued feelings for you as okay and to see them as compatible with the possibility of me being happy with and loving someone else.

That being said, I need you in my life.

I’m so glad that you’re still here and that I still know we care for each other deeply. I’m working on accepting our friendship for what it is and on simply being grateful that at one point in time we chose each other at the same time.

Think about how beautiful it is that for a moment, you were my person, and I was yours. I hope that I made an impact on you the way you made an impact on me.

I know I have a million “what if’s” constantly floating around in my head, but I think you’ll always be my biggest one. What if we had met at a different time in our lives? What if I hadn’t broken up with you when I did? What if you had forgiven me when I begged for you back?

The answers are irrelevant, but my biggest fear is that they’ll always take up so much space in my heart that I’ll be incapable of letting anyone get as close to me as I let you.

The comfort I feel with you is incomparable to what I have felt with anyone else, and that feeling of home was immediate. It’s terrifying how quickly I fell for you, and it’s even more terrifying how quickly my “logic and rationality” got in the way despite the fact that I’ve always considered my head to be my biggest ally, and my heart to be the enemy.

This is getting gross and poetic, I know. It’s a good thing no one will ever read it, because it’s all over the place oops.

I wish I could explain the way I love you and why I do and put it all into words, but I can’t. You’re not perfect. It’s not even that I think you’re perfect for me. We can’t stand each other sometimes, and for all I know we would’ve made each other miserable had we stayed together.

But…the fact still remains that I think I would choose an effortful relationship with you over an easy one with anyone else.

That’s not toxic right? You make me happy,. Even when I’m furious, I’m happy. Does that make sense? I never thought I was capable of caring about someone as deeply as I care for you, but alas, here we are.

I love you. I’m in love with you. I’m letting you go. I want you to be happy. I want us to be happy.

You’re important to me. I’m sorry. Truly, sincerely, I’m sorry.

I did certain things because I was stubborn and scared and stupid. I don’t know if you’ve forgiven me yet, but I hope you eventually can because I’m working on forgiving myself.

I forgive you too. I don’t even know if you did anything wrong or if you did more wrong than me or if you were perfect, but regardless, I forgive you.

I forgive us.

March 23, 2023