by GS ( Chicago )
Danielle – I had such a great time with you at dinner the other evening, I have missed spending time with you so much. I’m also at a real crossroads time in my life right now, between the divorce, career struggles, and an ugly birthday number that I’m still coming to grips with (mid life crisis anyone?).
So here’s the problem, I don’t think it’s good for me to see you again for a while. I really want to be best friends with you, but I’m just too attracted to you in so many other ways.
I’m not going to write a love letter to you, but if I did, it wouldn’t be a short one.
I’ve tried my best to be honest with myself and with you, and while I do know that you love me, I also know you don’t feel the same way I do.
That’s OK for real, it’s not anyone’s fault, we are who we are.
I think once I find myself a new girlfriend I can get myself back to some kind of normal, but right now it just genuinely hurts me to be with you.
I do realize I’m probably f*cking up our friendship for good, and wouldn’t blame you for feeling different about our relationship after hearing this from me. Just the same, I can’t deal with this pain right now, it’s deeper and more intense than I have felt in many years.
And maybe that’s a good thing, change is never easy.
I need to come to terms with a lot of realities that I’m trying hard to avoid.
I really hope that once I get my sh*t together you won’t hold this against me, and we can go back to being great friends again.
In the mean time I apologize to you from the bottom of my heart. I don’t want to make you feel bad, and it makes me feel even worse to know that I may be. I just need to be honest with you and myself right now, and find a way to move forward with self respect and integrity.
I’ll always be there to help you when you need it, and I know you would do the same for me.
I just need some time to fix myself a little.
I hope you can wait for me to figure out how to be friends again, this is all on me.